Samstag, Oktober 28, 2006

Decisions

This week has been amazing and very revelational. I feel immensly blessed. Among other things I finally found out where I want to live!

I was talking about Helsinki or where I want to live next year with Meike and she told me that she thinks I already know where I want to live in my heart. I thought so too, but I just wasn't able to make a final decision for myself. I felt like the process of my decision making was not yet done. Like I was still getting used to that idea. In a way I felt that I am needed in Helsinki. I have never felt the need to be close to my family more than in the process of decision making. When I think of Helsinki I could cry, because I have such a love in my heart and I don't really know where it comes from. But it is there.

But when I read the article in Meridian Magazine about the gala in Espoo near Helsinki honoring the Temple Decication and the Prophet's visit I knew 100% where I want to be.

Helsinki.

Without a doubt. All of a sudden I knew it. The Finns are a special people, I want to be part of that special spirit that is surrounding them. I am already half a part of that. But I want more. I want to live it and be a part of bringing more of that spirit to more people. Spreading the love. I want to be really cold in the winter, have real snow, eat the delicious food whenever I want to, I want to learn Finnish more, I want to spend more time with my family, I want to be Finnish, not just half.

But, I know what I want now. Now I will find out what the Lord wants. See you later.

2 Kommentare:

k8 hat gesagt…

gretel! you are moving to Helsinki! that is so awesome!

gretel hat gesagt…

yes! yes! yes! which reminds me, that i still have to put up the photos of my last visit to helsinki last weekend..